I'm battling hurts that I don't think were intentional, yet severely painful. I didn't think when I chose the book of Job for us to read through it would be so personal for me.
In Job we find he has lost all he has, including his family, because Satan challenged God and God allowed Satan to do all except kill Job to prove he would stay faithful to God. His friends first seem very supportive. They mourned with him, sat with him while he grieved. Then after a week his friends (in my opinion) turn on him. They start accusing him of sinning against God and that's why God is doing this to him. Job stays steady in the fact that regardless of why God is destroying him (even though we know it wasn't God... it was Satan) he did nothing wrong and will not speak against him.
The part that has spoken to me was the other day when I was reading chapter 25. Job's "friends" were making me mad. People he thought were people he could rely on, men he respected had turned on him. I have felt like that. My husband and I made a decision we knew God was pleased with and in turn we have had friends and family treat us like strangers and I didn't realize just how angry and hurt I still was until I read that chapter.
God has used that and words from two dear friends to help truly heal the hurt I feel. We are getting ready to peak into where Job turns to God and questions what is going on. I'm eager to learn exactly what is said between them. While I continue in Job, I will pray for healing, I will forgive even though it's not been asked for. I will move forward in building the Kingdom rather than stay and wallow in my self pity.
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