Purging Is A Good Thing

I have become more aware in the last few weeks of how much time I spend on social media. Every once in a while my husband will ask me to set it down and have some face time with him and I do, but feel annoyed that he's acting like I'm ALWAYS nosing around Facebook or Instagram.

Welp... I'm ready to admit it...

Hi, I'm Becky and I'm a Social Media Addict

Ugh... I hate that I've been sucked into it. Constantly scrolling through my news feed to see what going on. Refreshing Instagram to see what hip picture is up. Spending hours on Pinterest with nothing to show for it.

I'm not planning on cutting all social media out, but I do plan on scaling down A LOT. Unfriending people who I haven't spoken to in months upon months, unfollowing people that I've never met. Lessening my time on Pinterest so those Bible Study & Health tips I've pinned can be put to use.

Pray for me as I detox. I want my immediate response during down time to be reaching for my Bible, not my phone. I want to spend time in prayer and seeking God not searching out the goings on of other's lives.

I need God time... not me time.

Perfect Timing

A year ago I started an online Bible study. I never thought then that it would be exactly what I needed in this current season of my life.

I'm battling hurts that I don't think were intentional, yet severely painful. I didn't think when I chose the book of Job for us to read through it would be so personal for me. 

In Job we find he has lost all he has, including his family, because Satan challenged God and God allowed Satan to do all except kill Job to prove he would stay faithful to God. His friends first seem very supportive. They mourned with him, sat with him while he grieved. Then after a week his friends (in my opinion) turn on him. They start accusing him of sinning against God and that's why God is doing this to him. Job stays steady in the fact that regardless of why God is destroying him (even though we know it wasn't God... it was Satan) he did nothing wrong and will not speak against him.

The part that has spoken to me was the other day when I was reading chapter 25. Job's "friends" were making me mad. People he thought were people he could rely on, men he respected had turned on him. I have felt like that. My husband and I made a decision we knew God was pleased with and in turn we have had friends and family treat us like strangers and I didn't realize just how angry and hurt I still was until I read that chapter. 

God has used that and words from two dear friends to help truly heal the hurt I feel. We are getting ready to peak into where Job turns to God and questions what is going on. I'm eager to learn exactly what is said between them. While I continue in Job, I will pray for healing, I will forgive even though it's not been asked for. I will move forward in building the Kingdom rather than stay and wallow in my self pity.

"Rapture Now"

One of my favorite preachers jokes about when he's found himself in positions he doesn't care for (whether awkward, boring or in trouble with his wife) he will say "Lord, Rapture... NOW!". Lately I've truly felt that way.

Seems like the last year has been one of ill doings in our county. Elected officials have committed crimes shaking our community. Hearing of sins committed and crimes going seemingly unpunished, my heart breaks. My spirit is weary.

It's been announced WV will now recognize gay marriage, a school district in Nebraska is banning referring to children as "boy" and "girl" and suggests using the term "purple penguin" as to be "gender inclusive". REALLY!?

My head is full of emotions... anger, sadness, fear, uncertainty, impatience...

Let me let you in on a secret...
   Touching a child inappropriately is SIN
   Stealing money is SIN
   Selling narcotics is SIN
   Homosexuality is SIN

Isaiah 5:20 says "Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness; that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!" Letting sin go unpunished is the same as saying it's good... 

My heart breaks as I try to wrap my mind around how people could behave this way toward another person. I cry out to God to come now... I'm ready. I know where my eternity will be.